My mom told me not to tell anyone

So I told Ansh and Tsukii and Davene! I haven’t written anything on here lately because its kind of THE ONLY THING on my mind but I don’t want to write about it until I know for sure. I made a pro-con list with Tsukii yesterday and there are more pros but the main con counts for a lot. 

This is vague but keeping this kind of a secret is so so difficult (for me) and I haven’t really been keeping it so I feel bad (for my mom). Thats why I’m being vague. I find out in a week for sure and in the mean time I would hope and wish and pray but I’m not sure which outcome I want more.