coming up soon..
1. challenge day! next next thursday 2. new york! next next next tuesday 3. birthday! next next next next tuesday
I started and now I can't stop
watching the olympics. I feel like a bad person if I change the channel. Like I’m not appreciating all of the athletes enough and all of their work and talent. I tried watching House but I all I could think about were the bobsledders plus now I’m really caught up in it baaaaaah i hate how I create weird lame moral obligations for myself -_-
why am i blogging so much today?
because i’m eating cake and watching the olympics and writing my book review and i don’t have anything else to do no obligations bitchessss i ♥ saturdays
I feel that life is divided into the horrible and...
-woody allen, "annie hall"
forgiveness as food
I made cake and my dad is making steaks and my mom is giving me a clean slate.
from here to eternity
Alma: Nobody's going to stop me from my plan. Nobody, nothing. Because I want to be proper!
Alma: Yes, proper! In another year I'll have enough money saved. Then I'm going to go back to my home town in Oregon, and I'm going to build a house for my mother and myself, and join the country club and take up golf. Then I'll meet the proper man with the proper position, to make a proper wife, and can run a proper home and raise proper children. And I'll be happy because when you're proper you're safe!
Prew: You've got guts, honey. I hope you can pull that off.
Alma: I do mean it when I say I need you. 'Cause I'm lonely. You think I'm lying, don't you?
Prew: Nobody ever lies about being lonely.
The Manchurian Candidate
was on TCM this morning! I should have been catching up on Lost but I was in the mood for Frank Sinatra so I watched it instead. It just ended, with Frank Sinatra reading the citations to his girlfriend then throwing down the book with a strong, “Hell! Hell!” Frank Sinatra may be my second favorite actor, simply for this movie and Guys and Dolls.
i'm buying you guys chocolate for being so great
………..and then I woke up
what i wrote in lit
the sky is cloudless periwinkle it’s so warm and quiet. Reminds me of being a kid and sitting in the grass just me and the sun and nobody and nothing. It’s like being an instrument and the sun rays are clogging your keys and tickling your bones, even if you wanted to you couldn’t THINK. You can only be a girl sitting underneath the lime leaves of a tree while the sunshine...
these neon lights are keeping me distracted from...
I feel like a legend on a leash Making an effort to break every piece that I can reach Yeah, I got something to say, and even more to teach -atmosphere
mm mm mm
lit today was like a coma, just sitting on hot concrete writing about our observations. It wasn’t a very good exercise in observation, mostly I just wrote about how I felt like taking a nap and I wrote Boson a letter which I just reread and I sound stoned but it was sooooo relaxing and sunny and quiet. (hopefully how physio will be next year hehe). I actually thought of something to write...
indy vs indie
yesss movie of the day is raiders of the lost ark. I used to want to be an archaeologist when I was a kid. Until I learned that it was more like teaching at universities rather than being more like….indiana jones. life is so disappointing.
no rest for the wicked!
no time for tumblr anymore which is sad sad sad I haven’t blogged at all lately. I did yesterday but that was a SRJ tribute not really a thing. about. me. so busy with choosing my classes for next year, plus all my math work, plus I have my essay, plus I have my book review, plus I have to edit my VIDEO PROJECT THAT WAS ERASED TWICE FROM THE EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE no stress no stress!...
can't you see the tears roll down the street
my dad was listening to stevie ray vaughan today so I took our little compilation that has all his cds and a booklet all about his life and all these testimonies written by his friends and family and peers. They’re all so beautiful and sad and loving. It’s really tragic. “The world misses his music but I just miss my brother.” -Jimmie Vaughan
i ♥ high school
ooh la la
Going to see The Weir tomorrow in SJ. I saw an ad for it on TV. They pronounced Olivier like Oliver.
You are a vacuous soldier of the thrift store gestapo. You adhere to a set of standards and tastes that appear to be determined by an unseen panel of hipster judges-BULLSHIT-giving your thumbs up and thumbs down to incoming and outgoing trends and styles of music and art. Go analog baby, you’re so post-modern. You’re diving face forward into an antiquated past, it’s disgusting!...
One of our neighbors came over to drop off some puzzles she swiped from the Senior Center so my mom asked her to come in and have a cuppa tea and a slicea pound cake. She was old. This is how old she is: “My son was the class president of the very first graduating class at your school!” And this is how settled in life she is: “I have been living in the same house since...
beep boop bop pt 1
I AM SO TIRED AND BORED SO I WILL TALK ABOUT MY DAY IN TWO PARTS. This morning I went to Whole Foods, read a little of the book that our neighbors lent us, texted Tsukii, called Ansh, then decided to just get food because they’re both lazy droid douchers. And so I ate my mac n cheese by myself in front of Whole Foods while at the table behind me an Asian woman and her daughter chattered...
I’m fifteen years old and I feel it’s...
I wish I had a mind like Karl Pilkington
“Why didn’t evolution make a giraffe good at carpentry so it could build a ladder?” “They keep saying that sea levels are rising an all this. It’s nowt to do with the icebergs melting, it’s because there’s too many fish in it. Get rid of some of the fish and the water will drop. Simple. Basic science.” “I was walking past a sex shop an’ that. One,...
Perhaps if we saw what was ahead of us, and glimpsed the follies, and...– Lemony Snicket
i ♥ the vampire slayer
i was going to do all my homework/studying but buffy is on mtv and so now I just spent 10 minutes searching through the dvd case for seasons 1-3 dvds soooo now I probably won’t get anything done today! cooool
& listening to the xx with dad and mom while they talk about turbotax. Traveling from norcal to socal is taxing and they’re like two separate countries, I like it better down there. I loooooved just hanging out with Jaden and Alyssa but I swear I’ve never watched so much spongebob in my life. Disneyland was fun :) I’d forgotten basically everything about pirates and the...
my support system.............
"Stretch": and we've already established that i'm funnier
"Stretch": why are you even alive yasmin?
yasmiiiiiin: in comparison to your opinion of yourself nobody should be...
"Stretch": i love you yasmin
yasmiiiiiin: i don't
yasmiiiiiin: guess who is going to learn stick now
This isn't worth reading
To be honest having this weird amnesiac reaction to the accident is kind of cool. To a an extent (a very very small shallow extent) I feel like I’m in some sort of thriller-Bruce Willis movie and that I will be traumatized for the rest of my life until I re-enact the experience and my memory will return in a single terrifying instant filled with montages and grainy footage. Amnesia is...
I think I'm in shock?
I don’t remember anything that happened and when my mom was describing it to my dad it was so strange because I wonder if I was even lucid at the time or if I just am unable to remember. This has never happened to me before and I’m so tired from crying and I feel like shit but I don’t really want to talk about it. This is all I’ll write.
one of the worst/weirdest/best days of my life
I hated it. I hated all that happened, my inability to apologize and handle situations. It got so out of hand and complicated and I wish I didn’t do that now. I still feel guilty. But sitting and talking with Ansh and Kevin was fun. I told Tsukii a lot a lot a lot. I’m proud of that because I never really tell anyone anything. Just them I guess. Mostly. We sat in the back of the...
read some more of moby dick, listened to cello suite no.1 over and over and fell asleep around the time he met ahab for the first time.
2 hours and 10 minutes
left in today and I still haven’t gotten my daily call, or smile, or hello, we haven’t talked at all except when we talked on the phone yesterday and it was so strange how awkward it was.
I’m so excited for monday to go see jaden and alyssa :) :) :) Everytime I think about it I smile and get really happy. I miss them so much, I remember on the last day of our trip last year Jaden wanted me to drop him off at school and so I went with him in the morning and he held my hand and hugged me goodbye and then went to go to class with the other first graders…leaving me holding...
ex obsessions again, but no regression
I'm reading moby dick
“Whenever I find myself growing grim about the mouth; whenever it is a damp, drizzly November in my soul; whenever I find myself involuntarily pausing before coffin warehouses, and bringing up the rear of every funeral I meet; and especially whenever my hypos get such an upper hand of me, that it requires a strong moral principle to prevent me from deliberately stepping into the street, and...
Philip Larkin - This Be The Verse
They fuck you up, your mum and dad. They may not mean to, but they do. They fill you with the faults they had And add some extra, just for you. But they were fucked up in their turn By fools in old-style hats and coats, Who half the time were soppy-stern And half at one another's throats. Man hands on misery to man. It deepens like a coastal shelf. Get out as early as you can, And...
every time we talk about poetry in lit
The first two lines of that Philip Larkin poem pop up in my head and repeat over and over and then I think about that scene in Skins where Effy and Pandora paraphrase the lines and then about the NY mag article where I first heard about the poem and I don’t even know where I’m going with this but I’m really pissed about the phone call and then the other conversation now so...
hipster retreat with ski and nicole during lunch tomorrow complete with daria, nylonmag and ironic stories about our day, i’m looking forward to it
naveen said she wants to maybe to middle college too! but i think that nicole’s parents won’t let her. I haven’t asked my mom yet… I never know if she’ll be supportive or tell me to suck it up. she did say that if I really wanted to I could change schools. well, I really want to.